It is funny, I don’t even think of it as a unique day because it seems like every day has been our anniversary. I am certainly not trivializing the importance of this day, I am giddy with excitement, but I think our whirlwind love affair has quickly moved us down the love path.
When I think of our love, I mostly think of your love. You have the deepest, most genuine love of anyone I have ever met. You love. I feel like that sentence should be longer, but it seems to be all I can think of to describe it. Watching you work has reminded me, sometimes the message is simple. You love.
However, I am a romantic and cannot simply say that.
My love for you was 100% Eros when you walked into the speak-easy all sexy and confident. You had me from the first look and have not tuned back. The good news is that version of love is still vibrant and strong and is one of my core love languages and I will stubbornly hang on to it as long as my body allows. Buckle up.
You took that Eros and even the Ludus level of love and built from it. That Ludus was a blast. We played so hard the first year plus and really got to know the foundation. Sure, it was maybe more run and let things play out than building a foundation but we both already knew what we were looking for. We wanted a next level love affair and thankfully you had the skills to keep the love growing.
I feel like the Mania love, the stalker kind of love never crept in. There was never doubt or questioning of each other. It was quite the opposite. We let each other be free and self-aware and able to express our real self with mockery or jealousy or fear.
You were capable of Agape love from day one. You did not harbor grudges, nor did you apply rules to love. You simply loved and I found that intoxicating and freeing. I began to feel that it was safe to love myself and be honest with who I am and how I got to this place in my life. Thank-you for letting me experience Philautia really for the first time. You showed me how to love myself.
Here is the good part. We are at the beginning! I know that we will continue to evolve and grow. We have the best Storge love. Our family loves each other and we them. WE have five kids. WE have traditions that are beginning, and WE are great together.
We have yet to truly develop our close inner circle, Philia will come. I have so much to learn and welcome the joy of watching your spirit and actions as a guide. As time goes on each of these loves will settle in the place where there belong. Our Pragma will tie it all together and our time together will blend us together in even more glorious ways.
I cannot wait. It does not matter where we go, what battle we face or even if we are finally admitting we not in our 30s anymore. I never thought I would think about grandkids or the energy it takes with the little ones but now I catch myself. I catch myself realizing that my love needed a nudge.
Happy Anniversary Kitten.